Tattooed Heart, Chapter 2

She talked so fast, I could barely follow. The whole time, she had a dreamy smile on her face, nude painted lips parted, pearly white teeth exposed. Her eyes had a distant, whimsical look in them.
She was even more beautiful when she talked about teaching art to combat depression.

Catch Up

Chapter 2: Your Mom’s Basement

Benton

At exactly five a.m., my alarm went off. I strode into the kitchen where my best friend’s mom handed me a cup of coffee. My Italian mom, who gave me a place to land both times life hit me with a wallop.

“Thank you, Mama M,” I said in a low voice, taking an appreciative sip. As a teacher, she had to be up early, too, and we usually had our coffee together.

“Who are you going to see this morning?” she asked, giving me a knowing look.

“It’s Tuesday, so it’s Tula day,” I said.

“Which means you’ll be having vindaloo for lunch, so you don’t need this lasagna I packed.” She slid the container on the counter closer to her than me.

“Oh, I definitely need that lasagna,” I said, sliding it back to me. “Tula’s next-door neighbor just had a baby, and she doesn’t do curry. This’ll make the perfect lunch for her. I wanted to talk to her about signing up for WIC and SNAP. Her husband’s hours got cut—that’s what these programs are there for.” I slipped the container into my bag.

“Will you be home for dinner?” Mama M asked. “Or will this be one of those nights?”

“Probably gonna be one of those nights,” I admitted. I almost never made it home for dinner. “The renter’s rebate applications started coming in, and I want to stay on top of them.” I really needed an assistant, but there was no such position. A second social worker would work wonders, but tightwad Mayor Gregory Allen Matthews III—he always made sure to include his whole ass name—would never cough up the budget for one.

Mama M gave me a look.

“I know,” I said, giving her a kiss on the cheek. “Have a good day.”

“Tell my son to come for dinner tomorrow night,” she said, “and you and Goldie better be there, too.”

Since there were finally buds on the trees and I wouldn’t freeze my balls off, I walked over to Tula’s. The Shahs only lived a quick fifteen-minute walk from the Mosconis, in the condos behind the post office.

I knocked on Mrs. Shah’s door—Tula, she insisted. Before she started slinging tikka masala out of her kitchen, she and her husband ran Naan of That, the best thing to ever happen to Stagwood Falls. I used to go there just for their cinnamon and sugar naan. Life changing, that stuff. For four beautiful years, they ran that restaurant, just the two of them and their teenage daughter after school. The Shahs were older parents and barely kept up with the restaurant when their daughter went away to college, and when the pandemic hit, they had no choice but to close. Between tuition and inflation, they were struggling to get by, which was how they started selling to-go meals out of their back door. Technically, they didn’t have a license, but what the mayor didn’t know wouldn’t hurt him. And I wasn’t about to snitch. I needed my vindaloo fix.

Besides, in a small town that was still very white, black and brown stuck together.

“How are you doing, Tula?” I asked as I settled into her cozy kitchen. Most people were still sleeping, but she rose early to start cooking. It was the only time I could catch her before she headed out to make her deliveries. It suited me just fine, because I was an early bird, too.

Passing me a cup of turmeric ashwagandha, she sat across from me. “Drink up. It’ll help your stress.”

“Who says I’m stressed?” I took a sip anyway. Tula was very serious about her tea. She swore if I drank it every day, it’d cure all my problems. “Anyway, I’m here for you.” I tugged the wrinkled pamphlet out of my bag.

“This again.” She waved a hand at me. “I told you, this is our home.”

I looked around at the kitchen, the vase of fresh tulips on the counter, the bowl of mangos, the Buddha sitting by the sink. “It is,” I said gently. “Senior living isn’t so bad, though. It’s like a little condo in a community full of people your age…and it goes by your income. I just don’t want you to struggle anymore.” I took her hand in both of mine.

“Oh! That reminds me.” She jumped up and gave me a bowl of sliced mango. “You need to eat something other than coffee in the morning.”

How lucky I was, to be surrounded by mothers. I took a grateful bite, moaning in appreciation. Tula’s mangos came from her sunroom grove of bonsais and were the sweetest I’d ever tasted. I couldn’t blame her for not wanting to leave her home. It made no sense that senior living couldn’t offer a stipend for people who already had housing.

“Same time next week?” I asked her, tucking away the pamphlet.

“Your vindaloo,” she said, giving me the container. “And I—”

“Need this back. I know.” I hugged her tight. “Tula, if you need anything—”

“Just you and your handsome smile.” She patted my face. “Keeps my blood pumping.”

I chuckled. “Are you saying you only keep me around for my good looks?”

“Those cheekbones, that smile,” she gushed. “My daughter is in pre-med school, you know. She’ll be a doctor. She’s also very beautiful.” She nodded to a photo on the refrigerator.

“You remind me every week. I think she’s a little young for me, though.”

“She won’t be too young by the time she graduates,” she said with a wink.

“All right, Tula. Be easy.” I walked into the morning sunlight with a smile. I almost always did, after seeing Tula.

I knocked softly on her neighbor’s door, in case the baby was still sleeping, and gave her Mama M’s lasagna with an application for SNAP and WIC. “Just so you have it,” I said before she could argue.

She gave me a tired smile. “Thank you.”

“I’ll pick it up next week. Remember, it’s your tax dollars. It’s there for you.”

“Okay,” she agreed.

“Wish Grocery takes SNAP,” I reminded her, “and Grandma Wish would never give you a hard time for it. Trust me. I grew up on SNAP. David, too. She’ll probably even load you up with some extra if Gardner Farms oversupplies her.”

“Is that how you got to be so handsome?” she teased. “All those fresh veggies.”

I headed to the office, greeting people getting into their cars on my way. Daffodils and tulips were popping up everywhere, chasing away the winter blues. It’d been a long one, for me anyway. Mama M treated me like one of her own, and David was my brother from another mother, but I felt more disconnected than ever, especially since David spent more and more time with Goldie. I mostly saw him at work, sometimes at The Main Idea. Our weekly game nights were becoming our only guy time. To take the edge off the loneliness, I dove deeper into work. If the shoe was on the other foot and I was one of my clients, I’d gently suggest to me that I might have some abandonment issues leftover from my parents.

Tula was right. Not about me marrying her daughter—we were on too different paths of life for me to ever consider it—but I should get back out on the market. I just didn’t have anything to show for myself.

On my way through the building, I passed David’s empty office. He used to show up early like me. Now he had a life. He had a beautiful girlfriend he’d probably marry, and they’d make even prettier babies, surrounded by their warm, loving families. He’d probably be city planner until he retired, which meant his beautiful home up in the Stagwood Heights neighborhood was going to be his forever, a place to raise his family.

Family could mean so many different things, something built from scratch or something built in. I knew I was lucky to be surrounded by so many people who cared about me. Part of me felt like they were just being nice, though, handling the defect who couldn’t get his life together with kid gloves.

I stepped into my office and almost ran into Sabella—beautiful, beautiful Sabella, the woman who’d once invited herself back to my place after drinks and I’d messed that up by not having a place to take her to. Then she’d laughed at me.

No wonder she was single.

“Good morning,” she said, handing me a coffee.

I looked at it and her suspiciously. “Good morning,” I repeated. She wore her long black hair parted down the middle and straightened, framing her face. It skimmed her waist, or at least I thought so. Her hair blended into the oversized Touch of Gold hoodie she wore over leggings. Black, black, and more black. Even first thing in the morning, no makeup or anything, Sabella was stunning. “You’re the real life Morticia,” I blurted.

“If that’s supposed to be an insult, you’re gonna have to do a lot better than that,” she said. “Morticia Addams is a compliment. She’s a Latina queen.”

“It was a compliment,” I said, “but now I take it back. What are you doing here?”

“You can’t undo a compliment. And I already know you want to hit this,” she said sweetly.

“Wanted,” I corrected. For all her beauty, she had zero filter. I liked that I couldn’t predict her, and did not like how sharp her tongue could be. “So what do you want?”

“Your help,” she said, sitting in the visitor’s chair at my desk. “I want to put aside your heartbreaking rejection and ask for your help with a proposal—”

“No way,” I interrupted.

“—for my community art program,” she finished. She folded her hands in her lap, and I spotted dainty tattoos on her fingers before she moved them again, gesturing. “So? Are you going to help me? Pretty please. With sugar.” She batted long lashes at me. “It’s for the community. For mental health. Art therapy is—”

“Come on, we talked about this at David’s,” I said. “I’ve got too much on my plate. The timing—”

“Is a little crazy, I know, but hear me out. Don’t you think the town needs something exactly like this right now?” She blinked up at me, big brown eyes suckering me in.

We just kept looking at each other, her gaze inquisitive and soft, and mine… Well, I probably looked dopey as hell, staring at her. I couldn’t help it. From the moment I saw her at The Main Idea a year earlier, I hadn’t been able to look away. She was all bronze skin and legs, with more tattoos than I could possibly process, up and down every inch of exposed arm, leg, and even her neck. Most of them were roses. Sabella was covered in roses. The red complemented her skin, and the flowers only enhanced her beauty.

“Won’t you let me at least give you my pitch? I’ve been practicing in the mirror,” she pleaded.

“Fine. Give me your pitch. I’m not making any promises,” I warned.

She clapped her hands together, breaking the spell. “¡Wepa!” As she pulled a folder out of her bag, it snagged on the zipper and ripped the corner.

This girl was a beautiful tornado. A walking work of art. And I’d foolishly rejected her, probably taking out any chance of ever really getting to know her, never mind date her.

“In a perfect world, I want to do class twice a week for six weeks—eight, really—with a show at the end of it. A big festival. Outdoor, probably, with vendors and live music, and—”

She talked so fast, I could barely follow. The whole time, she had a dreamy smile on her face, nude painted lips parted, pearly white teeth exposed. Her eyes had a distant, whimsical look in them.

She was even more beautiful when she talked about teaching art to combat depression.

I dropped into the chair on the other side of the desk, my legs a little weak. Everything she was saying was exactly the reason I’d become a social worker. Like her, I wanted to reach out and give people a little lift. Life was hard. Most people were weighted down by poverty or chronic illness, either physical or mental—hell, sometimes both. I’d grown up with separated parents who had me young and never grew up themselves. I was used to coming home to an empty home, my mom at her second job. Dad wasn’t around much, but he made sure I got everything I needed. Money was still tight, even with social services. There were programs Mom didn’t even know about that she found out about through friends. I wanted to make sure everyone knew about these programs, and even make some new ones that everyone had access to.

Sabella was speaking directly to my soul. Our eyes locked again, two souls communicating without words. We wanted the same thing for Stagwood Falls, a place that’d been hit hard by both recessions in our lifetime. People in town were suffering, and only a handful of them came into my office. Some were too prideful or even ashamed to ask for help. An art program would draw people in, and by talking to them throughout the program, I could gauge their needs and make casual suggestions.

“We could do so much together,” I said at last.

“That’s what I’m saying!” she said with a grin. “So are you in, homeless Benton?”

“I already told you I’m in, and don’t call me that,” I said.

“Sometimes in my head I call you Señor Serio,” she said, dropping her voice and exaggerating a serious expression.

“Don’t call me that either,” I said.

“See? So serious. You’re gonna get frown lines right here.” Standing, she reached across my desk and touched the spot between my eyebrows. Heat bloomed where the pads of her fingers met my skin, radiating through me. Her hands on me felt like the kind of good I’d never get enough of.

The kind of good that wouldn’t matter because I had nothing to offer her.

I caught her hand in mine. “Let’s just focus on the program, cool?”

“Cool,” she said with a shrug, but I didn’t miss the disappointment in her eyes. Maybe she’d felt it, too. Maybe she hadn’t. It didn’t matter.

If I helped roll out her art program, I’d have a foolproof reason for Matthews to give me a raise. Then I’d finally get out of David’s old bedroom, and I’d have something real to offer a woman like Sabella.

I rolled up my sleeves.


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Sabella makes a living covering up people’s bad tattoos, creating art out of regrets and mistakes. When she finds herself separated from her high school sweetheart turned heartbreaker, she doesn’t just go into hiding; she takes her best friend up on an offer for a fresh start at her new tattoo shop and runs all the way to Stagwood Falls, an idyllic town reinventing itself after its own heartache. It’s the perfect place to hide, and it’s where she finds a new purpose: teaching the healing power of art to a community that’s desperate to move on. Unfortunately, to put her plan into action, Sabella must enlist the help of one sexy, sensitive town social worker, Benton Rhinehart—AKA the guy who wants nothing to do with her after their first encounter ended in hurt feelings and a wounded ego.

Benton gives everything to the people of Stagwood Falls, but the bank still took all he had when the recession hit. Instead of rebuilding himself, he eagerly dove headfirst into solving other people’s problems. So when Sabella comes to him with her community art program plan, Benton doesn’t hesitate to throw himself fully into it, even if that means working with the woman who shamelessly snubbed him the first time they met.

Despite their rocky start, it’s hard to ignore that Sabella and Benton make a great team. Their business relationship quickly turns into a friendship they both desperately need. Even though they’re better off as friends, the more time they spend together, the harder it is to ignore that there’s something much deeper going on. But when Sabella’s ex comes to town saying everything she wants to hear, she has to choose between her heart and her dream. Both feel like the same thing, and choosing wrong is one mistake she won’t be able to cover up.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 18

We order in and leave our clothes off. His cock slides home, reclaiming me. I don’t worry about cooling it, and he doesn’t tell me we shouldn’t be together.

We just are.

Then Cliff gets the call. “Ravage wants to see us.”

“How fucked are we?” I ask.

“Let’s find out.”

catch up

Olivia

Dawn rises, and with it Cliff returns. He’s wearing different clothes, and his face is haggard. I snuggle into his arms.

“Thank you,” I whisper.

He presses a kiss to the top of my head. “It looks good in here,” he says over me.

I nod. Beer Can did most of the work, but I helped a little. We used meat tenderizer and some enzyme soap to get the stains out of the carpet, then he peeled it back and scrubbed the concrete underneath. Luckily it wasn’t stapled—whoever did the carpeting just tucked it in a little around the kick molding. “Apparently my landlord’s even more of a cheapskate than I thought,” I say to Cliff.

But it worked in our favor. Beer Can collected everything—including my beloved MSI T-shirt—and put it all in a heavy duty garbage bag, promising that he’d take care of it. I didn’t ask how, and I don’t want to know.

Cliff ducks his head, meeting my eyes. “Are you okay?” His voice is husky.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 17

Once we wash off the blood and dirt of tonight, we won’t be able to rinse the memories or walk away from each other. Whatever happens next, this night has bound us together. For better or worse.

catch up

Cliff

The shrill ring of my phone jerks me out of a dead sleep. I sit up in bed, sweating. The club rooms are hot, as if the hormones from downstairs rise, permeating the ceiling that separates the two floors. Swinging my legs over the edge, I get up and crack a window. Cold air rushes in. Heavy lidded, I tip my head back and enjoy the wave.

My phone rings again. Silently cursing Lucy for choosing such a bone shattering ringtone, I scoop it from the nightstand.

The name on the display makes all of the blood drain straight out of my head. Before I even answer, I already know. Something is wrong.

“Are you okay?” I ask.

“Cliff,” she gasps. “Please.”

There’s no need for her to say any more.

I pull on clothes as I make my way through the small room, shrugging into my cut almost as an afterthought. I pound down the stairs and fly out the door. It’s as if my body has taken control, leaving my brain in my bed. By the time my head catches up, I’m flying down 63.

I ignore the speed limit and get to Olivia’s in under ten minutes. It’s probably more like five. Practically knocking the motorcycle over, I dismount and break into a run.

The apartment door is unlocked. I push my way in and look around wildly for her. My brain processes the scene in small increments.

Blood on the carpet in the entryway.

Shattered knick knacks strewn across the floor.

Olivia huddled next to her bedroom door, a gash oozing from her temple.

The Glock in her lap.

A man splayed in the center of the living room, a hole between his eyes.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 16

He’s fucking with me. Probably out there right now. I stare at the blinds. If I peek through, will I find him standing out in the yard, waiting for me to make a mistake? Does he realize he’s the one in danger?

catch up

Olivia

By the time Lucy gets home from work, I’ve composed myself. I’ve even fixed my makeup and fed Dio some canned tuna. Watching him wolf it down soothes me in more ways than I can list. I sit at the table reading for one of my classes on my phone when she walks in.

Despite my efforts, though, she takes one look at me and clucks her tongue. “I’ll kill him. What did he do?”

Big sisters always know.

I’m not even sure where to start. I look down at my hands. “Hope you don’t mind that I brought a date.” I nod to Dio, who’s passed out in a heap of towels on the floor.

Lucy’s face transforms from concerned sister to laser-shooting rage dragon. “Cliff did that?” She looks from me to Dio, appalled.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 15

“I got him on the floor, beat his face in with my fists.” I can still hear my flesh connecting with raw meat. “And I kept hitting him. I killed him, Olivia. And I’d do it again. I’d do anything for you,” I confess.

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Cliff

Olivia kicks against me, the ball of her foot smashing against my shin. I release her, and hold my hands up, palms out. She whips around, fists up. They drop when recognition dawns on her face.

“You did work,” I say, grinning through a wince.

She sags against the closed front door, though, face pale. She sinks to the carpet and draws her knees to her chest.

“Liv?” I cross the distance between us and sit next to her.

Blinking away tears, she shakes her head over and over again. It’s a steady hand that brushes her hair out of her eyes, though, and I know my girl’s going to be okay. Still, I wrap an around around her and pull her close.

“Sorry I scared you,” I whisper into her hair.

Her head snaps up, though, as if she’s already showed too much vulnerability for too long. Those eyes ice over—a look I’m more than familiar with. Olivia is trapped in her own prison.

She lifts her chin. “What do you know about Mercer Reynolds?” A cold, calculating gaze searches my face.

“The name doesn’t really ring a bell,” I say, “but isn’t that your last name?”

“Mercy, then?” Her face is as hard as white marble, the usual contours of her cheeks gone.

I shrug. “Olivia, what’s this about?” I hug her closer, even though her body is rigid.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 14

I still have no idea how he got into my apartment. The thought of my kitten, mangled and bloody in my bed, sends chills down my spine. Nah, I’m not scared. I’m pissed.

Whoever he is, however he got in, I’m coming for him.

catch up

Olivia

The sunlight slanting in through the front windows of the veterinarian’s waiting room does little to calm me as I pace the small area. Somehow, Dio survived the night. They were able to set his tiny bones and, after several imaging tests, determined that no damage was done to his internal organs. At least, none that won’t heal in time.

I just want to see him. The assistant already warned me that he’s heavily sedated so that he can get better, but I don’t care.

I didn’t sleep last night, and not because I was scared that Eli would come back. No tiny bell tinkled intermittently, letting me know Dio was prowling the apartment. It felt strange not having him there.

My phone vibrates in my bag. I tug it free and read the text from Esther: “We found tires. Waiting for the guys to put them on. Be back ASAP.”

But my shoulders only sag with partial relief. Esther was cool enough to let my rent slide for the month, that way I could afford both Dio’s care and the tires. But between that and stopping at Walmart last night to buy a new lock set for the apartment, I’m officially tapped.

Then there’s school to think about.

I resume pacing. I should be at my internship right now. For the most part, it isn’t really a big deal. I’m already behind. But eventually I have to return to campus, and I still haven’t figured out how I’m going to handle this.

The gun is a comforting weight in my purse, but it’s not like I can shoot Eli in the face in broad daylight. Nor will he try anything during the day, surrounded by hundreds of people on campus. Besides, as far as he’s concerned, right now I have no idea who’s stalking me. He’s still the nice guy from my photography class who let me borrow a camera and hangs out with me at lunch.

Which doesn’t make any of this any less disturbing.

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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 13

I missed a meeting with my parole officer, and if I don’t get down there right now, he’ll send me back to prison. The snow drifting from the sky doesn’t care that my only vehicle is a motorcycle. I’ve gotta haul ass.

catch up

Cliff

When I wake up the next morning, the house around me is quiet. Rolling onto my side, sheets sliding against my naked body, I pat around on the nightstand for my phone. It’s after ten. I haven’t slept in this long in ages.

There are no missed texts or calls, but that’s no surprise. Only a handful of people have my phone number. One of them is at work, another is in class, and the rest of them are probably sleeping off hangovers. I smirk, thinking of my brothers’ somber faces as they headed into Church last night, drinks clutched in their hands. Someday I’ll be a part of that, too.

It feels good to belong to something again.

It feels even better to belong to someone.

Even if Olivia and I haven’t exactly called it, I feel it. Maybe it sounds sappy, but there’s a connection between us that I’ve never felt with anyone before.

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“I Have to Tell You Something” | River Reapers MC Summer Miniseries: Part 6

“I have to tell you something, something you can never, ever repeat, because the whole club and everyone else we love would be at risk. It’s just—” She blinks away tears. “I can’t hold this secret, not on my own. I promised, but I just can’t.”

author’s note

You’re reading the latest episode in summer 2024’s River Reapers MC miniseries. If you’re already caught up on all six episodes, stay tuned.

If you’re just coming in now, you don’t need to read the books to follow along, but you do need to catch up on Parts 1-5!

catch up

Cliff

Something is wrong. I can tell by the way Olivia shrinks into Lucy’s condo, making herself smaller with each step inside. She closes the front door and leans against it, rose red lips sighing softly. I don’t want to push her but I don’t want to leave her lonely in whatever she’s going through. I don’t want to scare her, either—last time I startled her in Lucy’s living room, she went all MMA on me. Which was hot, not gonna lie. I love that my girl can take care of herself.

Sometimes I just wish she’d let me take care of her, though.

So I stand real slow and say, real soft, “Hey.”

She walks into my open arms, resting her head and its soft curls against my hard chest. In prison, there wasn’t much else to do other than workout and read, so I went in scrawny and walked out stacked, with a lot of interesting but ultimately useless knowledge.

They don’t exactly want people to better themselves, not really.

“Something happened,” I say more than ask.

She nods, the slightest movement that I wouldn’t have caught if her head wasn’t right on my chest. My heart slams against my sternum and I know she can hear it. All I can do is pray to a god I don’t even believe in that the something that happened isn’t the something I fear most.

There are now three women in my life that I love more than anything: the fiery redhead who I still think of as my baby cousin, her green-eyed daughter who is no longer a baby but will always be Baby, then there’s Olivia, my baby, the love of my life, the one I want to build a future with. If anything happened to any of them, I’d rip the earth apart with my bare hands until I’ve beaten everyone responsible back to dust.

Olivia pulls away from me but slips her hand into mine, leading me back to the couch. “I have to tell you something, something you can never, ever repeat, because the whole club and everyone else we love would be at risk. It’s just—” She blinks away tears. “I can’t hold this secret, not on my own. I promised Ravage, but I just can’t.”

A growl rises in my throat. I’m sick to death of Ravage and his secrets. So much so that I’m wondering if maybe it’s time for a change in leadership. Because we can’t all keep fumbling in the dark, not if we’re going to survive. Not while he keeps all the club’s secrets, only telling the rest of us when he deems it necessary. Someone’s going to get killed that way.

Maybe even one of the women I love most.

But I swallow my rage and say to Olivia, “Tell me.”


“The club makes its money three ways: flesh, drugs, and guns. Ravage, Mercy, and your father Bastard wanted to do better than other MCs. Instead of helping sell women and children into sexual slavery, they founded The Wet Mermaid, where women of age could voluntarily dance for a living. We work with Shannon’s Haven, offering jobs to survivors of sexual and physical abuse in not just dancing, but also bartending, waitressing, and management. We essentially give survivors a way to reclaim their power. I’m proud of that. I’m proud to be a part of it.

“We also sell drugs, literally under the bar counter. I’m… I’m not so proud of that. My foster parents—Lucy’s parents, your aunt and uncle—are big cokeheads, and they get their coke through us. Not me—they don’t ever come in here when I’m working. But they’ve always been a part of this club, all while pretending to look down their noses at it.

“I’ve sold coke, pills, and weed at that bar, while pouring drinks. I’m not proud of that, not at all, and if I was President or even VP of this MC, I’d change that in a heartbeat.

“But it’s not so simple.

“Because we also deal in guns. Every single one of us has a piece. Even you, Cliff. The serial numbers have been filed off, making it obvious they weren’t acquired legally. The Wet Mermaid not only serves as our clubhouse and a licensed strip club, but also as a front for laundering that drug and gun money. And today I learned where those drugs and guns really come from.

“Just like I learned what happened to Tommie’s mother.

“Ravage was dating her—well, I say ‘dating’ loosely. Shannon had kicked him out because he was fucking this other woman: Tommie’s mother. She was one of the club hangarounds. She really liked her coke, Ravage says.

“So my first thought, when we were sitting in his office and he told me all this, was that maybe she died of an overdose. Maybe she accidentally OD’d and he panicked and dumped her body. But that… that’s just not Ravage. I know he’s a killer. I know what he’s capable of. I know he can be colder than ice. But he’s not that cold. Not at all.

“No, what really happened is so much worse, Cliff. So much worse.

“Because we’re in bed with the mafia. The Violante family, specifically. And Tommie’s mother saw something she wasn’t supposed to, all because Ravage couldn’t keep his dick in his pants. So they got rid of her. They got rid of her, Cliff, and then Ravage and everyone else pretended they’d never even heard of little Tommie’s mother.

“Tommie went into the foster care system,” Olivia says with a sob. “She went to horrible people in horrible homes who did horrible things to her, and she never ever knew what really happened to her mother. But I know. Ravage knows. And now you know, too.

“And we can never, ever tell her, because the Violantes will make us all disappear. Us, and Lucy, and even innocent little Bunny. Tommie, too. All because Ravage couldn’t keep his dick to himself.

“And now I’m not proud at all,” she finishes with tears flowing down both sides of her face, and my heart breaks, the cracks filling in with rage, burning through me until all I can see is red.

To be continued…


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A Disturbing Prospect, Chapter 12

My hands are too full to put on my hips. “Dude, my father taught me how to shoot.” I don’t remember our dad ever taking Lucy or I to a shooting range. I hadn’t thought I remembered anything about my biological parents, but maybe I do.

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Cliff’s lips press to mine, an exchange of warmth. He smiles against my lips. I can’t help but smile back. I step away, though, the late night tugging me toward bed. I really do have an early morning ahead of me, but it helps to play hard to get. If I’m going to do this—really do this—I’m going to do it right.

As right as I can, anyway.

Sliding him one last smile, I unlock my door and step inside. Cliff drives away as I close the door behind me. I lock it and lean against it, still smiling. If someone ever figures out how to bottle this feeling, they’re going to be rich.

The apartment is mostly dark, lit only by a lamp in the living room area. Esther is either still at work, or out with her new boyfriend Donny. He picked her up earlier, since she still has no tires. He’s nice—I get why she likes him. Tall with deep bronzed skin, he has a kind smile, but there’s a bad boy edge to him. Something in those eyes. The guy could be a model.

I hum to myself as I make my way through the apartment. Esther and me, the two most unlikely people to ever fall in love. I stop in my tracks, shaking my head.

No, no. Not love.

“Damn it, Olivia,” I mutter.

I correct myself as I push open my bedroom door. We’re the two most unlikely women to ever settle down into actual relationships.

There.

The smile slides from my face as I flick on the switch.

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Does horror belong in romance?

The infamous Butcher & Blackbird ice cream scene broke the internet. In the scene, our hero Rowan accidentally eats ice cream made from human semen. A little later, they find the maker of this confectionery nightmare eating it on purpose. The ice cream only has a brief cameo, but it ignited an age old debate. Should romance be gory?

In mainstream romance, we focus on the cute moments in life packaged in prose revised to Hallmark perfection. If there are any corpses, they’re reduced to a more palatable mention.

Sometimes that escape from reality is desperately needed. We slip into picturesque struggling towns that won’t really go under, and even if someone dies, their death serves as some kind of lesson for our main characters. We will never, ever see our hero eat cum ice cream. The only thing he’s eating is our heroine’s pussy. 😈

Or our other hero’s cock. Whatever works!

I love when dark romance marries romance with horror. It’s a personal gripe of mine that the dark romance section is packed with titles that contain little to no romance. Often they’re actually vengeance stories, our heroine getting her just desserts. I love these stories, too; it’s so healing to read a badass woman killing rapists. But when I pick up any romance, it’s because I’m in the mood for romance, ya know?

That’s why I loved Butcher & Blackbird so much. Brynne Weaver balanced revenge with a slow burn love story and plenty of gore for the triumvirate of dark romance. There’s a running bit where our hero busts our heroine’s balls for always doing a bad job gouging out the left eye of her victims. At first she’s annoyed by this wry observation. Then it becomes an inside joke, evolving as their relationship does.

The semen ice cream scene is such a brief one, yet clearly made an impression because people are still talking about it. It doesn’t read like the shock value I too often see in dark romance. It’s set up like a comedy bit, which is a smart move on Weaver’s part because comedy and horror are closely related. There’s a reason why Jordan Peele of the Key and Peele comedic duo went on to become a horror king: both genres are all about timing. The creme de cum serves as an opportunity for the reader to feel Sloane’s and Rowan’s shock. As horror fans, we’ve seen a lot of cannibalism, so the usual stuff won’t work for us. Weaver gets that. When Rowan takes a bite, we’re not just grossed out, we’re laughing in horror because omfg, he for real ate it, and most of us can recall the taste and texture of both ice cream and semen, so we’re both horrified for him and laughing in relief that it isn’t us.

In case you can’t tell, I’ve got a bit of a writing crush on her.

The scene is about as skippable as spicy bits; you can skim if you’d prefer and you won’t miss much, other than the two main characters bonding over this tragedy.

I want to see more dark romance like this: books that blend all the feels of horror with the rush of falling in love. The weirdo who made the ice cream isn’t what really scares our MCs. It’s the notion of giving away their heart to the other person, and that’s what they really have to vanquish to get their HEA.


What are your favorite romances that blend in horror elements? Tell us the title and author, please!


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